how to love two . . .

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I can't believe I'm about to be a mommy of two.
Two precious little princesses.
I can't imagine anything better.
But like I shared earlier this week, Im gonna be real honest here...


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I have some anxiety.
Not just about how to "manage" two littles day to day.
(though i know that will be a big adjustment!)...

But about how I will love the second
as much as I do the first.
I literally cannot fathom my heart being more full.

It's not that I doubt I will love #2 as much as #1,
but right now,
before I have seen her face and held her tiny body,
I pray and wonder how I can love another, as much as I love the little girl
that I hold every day already.

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That snowy Christmas Eve almost 2 years ago,
Abigail graced us with her (very big) presence, and
our hearts BURST
with a love we didn't know we were capable of.

And we literally still talk every night about how
in love with her we are.
She has changed us, opened our capacity for love, opened our hearts.

(number 2 in there, at about 28 weeks)
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Does this make sense to anyone?
Did anyone else ever struggle with these thoughts
when they were expecting their next child?

I am telling myself that I also never knew how much I could or would love a child
before Abigail came.
BUT . .
Then it all changed, like I said,
the Lord opened our hearts more than we ever
could have imagined.


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So I know that will happen again
with number 2.
and I can't wait for my heart to FILL UP even more.
I mean, wow.
now that, I seriously can't imagine right now.

I do already love her so much, kicking around in my belly each day.

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but for now,
My prayer and hope is that when she does arrive,
the love in my heart would feel as though
it's been MULTIPLIED, and not divided.


{I seriously would love yall's thoughts on this,
if you have any to share, or have been there yourself.}

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linking up with other hearts being shared,
check them out over here:
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