my breakdown last night...
/I'm linking up today over at Call Me Blessed,
even though this post is from a few days ago, I felt like I should share it...
to encourage us to remember where our strength comes from.
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heres goes mine...
brutal honesty today people.
Last night, I had a little breakdown.
well, really a big one,
that involved tears and having to pull my car over.
And a little bit of shouting out loud to God.
ever have one of those moments?
I'm still working through what happened,
and I know A LOT of it is my 9-month-pregnant hormones raging.
But I also think the Lord was just needing to take me back to a place of
desperate dependance on HIM and Him alone.
on His strength. on His control.
on His power and His love for me.
I've dealt with quite a few toddler meltdowns this past week,
which is becoming pretty hard being so pregnant and exhausted physically.
and that actually has led me to spiral into worrying about
how I am going to deal with TWO little ones...
a dependent newborn and a spicy toddler, all at once.
Don't get me wrong, I cannot WAIT to have these two precious girls
to care for every moment,
but when I think of how I will do it,
I tend to forget that I DON'T have to do it in my own strength.
and when I really step back,
when I really remember the strength i HAVE received from Him...
I am utterly amazed.
how many nights for how many months did I get up several times to nurse...
and was still functioning the next day?
how many times did I get up with her last winter when she was sick so much...
and still participated in life the next day?
how many days seem SO long as I journey through being a new mommy...
and I still have the JOY and energy that comes from loving her.
All this to say,
I'm glad I broke down,
I'm glad some tears were shed in my car.
They are leading me back (even now as I write)
to remembering that I CANNOT rely on me.
I cannot depend on MY strength.
and really...I don't even want to. I'd live my life in bed if I did that.
So remember today the STRENGTH that comes from the Lord.
Because He loves you and desires FULLNESS of life for you.
"He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless.
Even youths will become weak and tired,
and young men will fall in exhaustion.
But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not faint."
Isaiah 40:29-31
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