to mother His daughter — sarah elizabeth lowe

I posted this (below) last year, but the Lord brought me back to it today.

I now have a second daughter in the picture,

and I SO desire to teach her and guide her as HIS daughter...

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I have never found as much joy in something as I have in being a mother.

I feel honored and privileged to have a little one. Especially a little girl. I hope for a boy someday too but I love being mommy to a pretty little curly headed baby girl. I love the pink and the flowers. I love the bows and the shoes. I love that she already loves to watch in the mirror as I brush her hair after her bath. And on that note, I love the moment I had with her the other night where she took the comb in her hand and tried to "brush" mommy's hair too...what a special mother daughter moment I cant really explain!

I cannot even comprehend the joys and moments I have waiting ahead to share with my little girl.

Along with all the ribbons and bows of being a girl come the insecurities and doubts that the world and our enemy throw at us as girls, even from such a tender little age.

The Lord is just beginning to scratch the surface with me on this but I am burdened lately to begin the journey of understanding something...that as a mommy I have a responsibility (that I am honored to hold) to show my daughter what a woman is. That its more than just the pretty things. Just writing that statement gives me a little anxiety but also makes me excited. I feel amazed that God would pick me, with all my gunk and wounds and insecurities, to lead a little girl in the way she should go as a person, a girl, a woman, and possibly a wife and mother herself someday. whew.

It makes me nervous for this reason: I have so much still in me, so much to be healed and so much to learn. So much confidence still to gain as a woman. I think though that He is beginning to reveal to me that it is possible to actually be the woman he created me to be, the woman that my heart so longs to be. I'm not there yet by any means, but I know He is allowing me to step into the path that will take me there.

To become the woman, the wife, the mother, the daughter, the friend, that I truly desire...I must first remember that I myself am a daughter above all else. A daughter of a King. Of a Heavenly Father who loves me unconditionally and who has treasures and plans for me beyond my wildest imaginations. I am His princess...that's what the daughter of a King is, isn't it?

In all my fear and anxiety about raising my daughter to be a little woman, I must remember that she also is a daughter of a King. Of a Father who loves her more than I can know, which is just unfathomable to me, given how much I love her myself.

I guess the point of all this for me is to declare before you that I feel an urgency to step into the role that God has for me as a woman. I'm not there yet. It will take lots of grace and patience but I have heard Him speak to me that this is the time for me to begin to understand all that He has for me as His daughter. And so then... I will be able to pass this journey of grace and understanding on to my daughter. I want her to know that she can feel secure. That she will always be loved unconditionally and that she is perfect in His sight, and in mine too. When the world begins to judge her, as it surely will, by her ribbons and bows... I want her to know that those things don't matter.

Because she is a daughter who is loved.