and It is only Day 2.
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a few days ago, Parker and I kissed our girls goodbye and flew to Georgia for the week.
We are at a conference here called Be In Health.
We came here 5 1/2 years ago, when we were in throws of desperation due to lots of physical sickness I was dealing with. The premise of the conference is learning the spiritual roots of disease.
(I have blogged about our time before...when I was delivered from fear, and healed of Fibromyalgia.)
This time, I am hearing it all in a whole new light.
We didn't come for physical healing/insights to sickness for ourselves this time,
but more for freedom from spiritual bondages that Parker and I both deal with.
I have shared before that I struggle a lot with shame, and I know that is from the enemy,
so I am believing God for some deliverance from that this week!
Parker and I both feel the Lord readying our hearts for some major deliverance and freedom this week.
While I am the first to say that one conference or one thing is not the "answer"...
and that I believe God can heal and set people free anywhere and any way He wants to...
I can't help but say that this place, these teachings, are so so good.
Like just basic, scriptural stuff that we haven't ever learned or really meditated on and walked out.
Parker and I keep saying that we want everyone we know to come to this.
Even if you don't "believe" in healing and deliverance...
I am going to be bold and say that if you really understood God's word and what He says and promises for you...
you might just rethink your position.
I myself have believed God can heal for a long time, but just being reminded of the truth in His word is reinforcing WHY I believe it.
And why I NEED it.
Sick or not, it is truth taught in such a way to learn what God says in a deeper understanding,
and learn how to truly get rid of hindrances to believing Him and taking Him at His word!!
So that in turn, the freedom and healing CAN come.
I mean, wow yall.
It is like opening your heart to a water spout of truth,
and it being just dumped into you for 8 hours a day.
So, so needed as believers.
Just a few of the things I am learning and reflecting on already (and its day 2 of 5):
-The ability to recognize my Father as my FATHER, as unconditionally loving Daddy, is so huge.
-I have a LOT to repent of. My list is a lot longer than I realized it would be!!
This includes repenting from making agreements with Satan that keep me in patterns of thought that are NOT from the Lord, that do not bring life
...like realizing how much I listen and agree with the enemy when I fear being rejected
(a long time struggle of mine).
Because that is the opposite of truth. I am loved, accepted, and blessed as a daughter of God!
-Re-learning that repentance isn't just something to be done for outward, "obvious" sin.
But that really, we all need to be aware of things to repent for all. the. time.
Ways of thinking, agreements with the enemy, different spiritual battles we each face.
Anything not of God, that we have believed or acted on, over believing HIM.
-The fight for my attentions and affections is so real. And it is not against flesh and blood....
*this is something I think many believers forget or have never even been taught...and it's right there in scripture, plain as day.*
"For we are not fighting against flesh and blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers of this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places." Ephesians 6:12
-recognizing that I truly desire to be CHANGED, and not just FIXED, if that makes sense.
Like I don't just want to not be plagued by detrimental ways of thinking, and I don't want to just be totally healthy... I want my whole life to reflect the truth of God that says I was MADE for FREEDOM. And that Jesus came to set me free.
I can't wait to share more as this week unfolds and God shows up.
And just a "warning"...as I get freed up from this fear of rejection, I'm proooobably gonna be sharing things a little more boldly here!! :)
I am praising God for that.
Praising Him that He is going to release me from that fear so I can share His heart confidently.
Can not wait to see what God does this week.
And cant wait to share it!!
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Thanks y'all for those sweet friends covering us in prayer this week...
and thanks for listening to my heart here!