wanting to be more honest about my testimonies...

 I have always tried to be very open and honest here,
but I have been feeling such a pull towards sharing more of the deep things in my heart...
as He leads me to.

I have sat down to write about something after thinking to myself,
"oh that would be great to share about,", etc.
But then I try to write out my thoughts and just don't feel the peace in it.
Does that make sense?

One thing I really feel is important to me in this space
is that I only share as the Lord leads, especially about the things He is doing in me.
There are some things, I believe, that just need to remain between His heart and mine,
but if He presses on my heart to share those things, then I want to honor the value of that,
and be very thoughtful in my writing of it.

And being "thoughtful" about my words does NOT mean that I am being inauthentic.
It simply means that I desire to share exactly what is in my heart to share, 
nothing more and nothing less.
Being completely led by the Holy Spirit.

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In my desire to share more about deep deep things...I can easily get persuaded by the enemy into fearing people's judgement.
That maybe my friends who read this believe differently than me about certain things...
so maybe they will judge me because of it.
or that maybe people will think I'm crazy or that some of the things I have experienced with the Lord are "crazy" and then will judge me,
or even worse, judge Him, because of my words.

I want nothing more than to express His goodness towards me.
To proclaim what He has done, without fear of people's thoughts and judgements.
And to share the testimonies He has given me to share.
(the ones that I feel released to share, that don't need to remain between us).

But here and now, I am setting aside my fear of judgement and am just going to believe that He will use my testimony for His good.
(I am even about to ask for yall's thoughts on all this.)

SO...starting now, I am recommitting to share MORE of me, more of Him...
here in my space on the inter-webs. (that's what my hubbs calls it) :)

All in the hopes that it will be of benefit to someone.
To YOU, maybe.
That He will use my story to bless you, offer guidance or Truth,
or just be someone to relate to.

Here's where I would love your help..seriously.
I have so much that I DO feel like I need to share here, but don't know just where to start.
So I am hoping that maybe you as my readers can let me know what you might want to hear about most.
(and even as I write these things out I am battling fear of opinions and snap judgements of people..ugh!)
But I will press on...

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Here are some of the (deeper) things that I feel like I am supposed to write about:

1. my supernatural healing from Fibromyalgia.
2. other supernatural healings God has done in my body.
(I have been healed from IBS, Lactose Intolerance, kidney stones...)
And yes...I am talking about miracles here. Like there today-gone tomorrow healing.
3. How I was delivered from my battle with Fear..and all about my battle with it.
4. How I am not the same person I was growing up when it comes to God.
5. About our journey out of the institutional church.
(yes, I said out...we have not gone to "church" in about 5 years now)
6. My beliefs/experiences about the gift of prophecy and other spiritual gifts.
7. The importance of having deep discussions about faith with your husband.
8. About coming to the realization that my husband is NOT my provider.
9. About the supernatural stories of provision He has done...
like checks on our doorstep and cash from strangers when we had NOTHING.

and lastly...
if you have any questions for me at all, about my faith,
I want to do my best to answer.
Feel free to comment or email me.
I think this is what community is all about.

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wow. okay..that's a lot, I realize.
But I am anxious to share, and to testify of His good character.
What do y'all want to hear about right now?
Would any of those things bless you or help you?

I will share them all regardless, in the Lord's timing,
but I'd love to know if any of these things might hit home or be something you'd like for me to share about here.
I value your thoughts and your ear. :)

Here's to overcoming by the blood of the Lamb, and the word of our testimonies...
(Rev 12:11)

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