monotony of motherhood — sarah elizabeth lowe

I have found myself feeling a little bit in a rut of monotony when it comes to motherhood lately.

And it's honestly hard for me to admit this, especially when I have a husband who does very monotonous, tedious work all day, every day.

But it's a different kind of "monotony" than just working through legal documents.

And it has actually surprised me.

I really never thought I'd feel this way being a "SAHM" (that's "Stay At Home Mom" in case you don't know!).

Especially because I am not the parent who has much "routine" with my littles.

Besides a few planned dance classes or swim lessons, we pretty much just go with the flow around here. So I guess thats why its surprising, because I had no idea it could ever feel like I was being repetitive in my days as a mom.

But here I am...feeling lately like I live the same day over and over.

(Groundhog Day, anyone?)

Maybe it's just the season I'm in with a toddler who throws fits every day and wears me out with her constant "nagging"...and maybe it's that I have a newbie who still nurses round the clock and doesn't do much yet. Or that we watch the same Angelina Ballerina shows every single day, and have the same battles about eating her meals every single day. I don't know.

I just know that I have been feeling the need for a "hiccup" in my days.

So this week, I have tried to mix it up a bit.

{I went to a Zumba class at the Y for the first time ever, and have been three times already this week...it's addicting to shake your booty to Latin music (you should seriously try it if you never have) and it burns a ton of calories too!}

But even in that, in my stepping out to make things a little different in my days, and do something for myself so I don't go crazy....

it's been hard.

Twice now at the gym, the nursery had to come get me because Bethany was crying, interrupting my workout. Last night, because I had to leave Zumba halfway through that day, I went to workout after the girls were in bed...my sweet husband encouraged me to go.

But alas, I was texted halfway through that Abigail was freaking out that I was gone and so I left and came home.

Don't get me wrong people...my babies and my job as a mother are the BEST thing in my life and I don't want to be doing anything different right now.

I love being needed, and being a source of comfort for them.

But I'm just being honest here. (and maybe complaining a little too..sorry!)

I just sometimes crave a little different in my day....a little break from it all.

(Ill take a beach vaca if anyone wants to pay for it)

ONE thing that has helped me...our little neighborhood lake.

fresh air. sunset. breeze (well really WIND, I do live in Oklahoma). open skies.

babies in the stroller, occupied by looking at something other than me.

just being outside.

I need more of this.

And really I need more of Jesus right now too.